Peace...Composure...Destiny...Who Am I?

This 2 days were peaceful...now tat my IAP is over...This weekend left me to tink about everything in the world...

Went to KBox yesterday, but for some reason... I jus cant get into the mood of fooling around...Y? Something seems to be bothering me...something...

At last nite, I jus found out the fact that the gal is not a attachment student...haha...I cant believe it...I like someone whu is older than me...wat the heck...

But that is not all the issue that bothers me... As I get more and more fustrated... I remember wat my IAP supervisor told me...

"You need to know whu u r...U need to know urselves..."

Then today went to friendster to look at some of my frenz profile... Then this new tinking came to me... I am 19 now... But hav I behave like a 19 years old? Hav I wasted my 3 years of youth?

I confess that I am a serious person whu don really like to joke or fool ard... I don take smoking drinking or gambling as a minor affair...I don do them... I don like to see ppl pulling pranks around the place...I am disgusted by that...

When in IAP... I must say...I don behave like a student...Student at attachment will hav lots of "leave" but me...I don really skip too many session... I don play hide and seek around wif any lecturers or staff and I take everything they say seriously...

Seeing some of my frenz profile and seeing them having their own outing and gathering wif their frenz doing everything under the sun... I must say...I am jealous of them...

Whu am I? What am I? I feel like I such a boring person...I don do things that my peer do at this age...Am I so a serious person whu is such a boreness? I feel so like a military officer who only do SERIOUS things...

Do u call this "no self-confidence"?

Frankly, I must confessed that I don even understand myself...1 min I might be laughing, the other min I might be sulking... Am I going mad...but ppl do say mad ppl donno they are mad...

But whu am I...seriously...whu am I...wat kind of person am I really...Am I kind? Am I evil?

The greatest enemy in this world is not ur foe, its urselve..

Ur greastest frenz in the world is not ur best frenz...its urselve...

The person whu are not really familiar with is not ur Hi-Bye frenz...its urselves....